Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Quick Update

I am a few days into the new mode of operations.  I have actually gotten up at 5:30 am to work out and I have actually enjoyed it.  I love that my workout and most of my PT (the stretching part) is done for the day. I think this will work long term.

I also realized that with getting up at 5:30 am three times a week, I need to switch my weigh in day. (I really don't want to weigh myself and then get on an exercise machine - too many potentially bad associations.)  I had originally picked Tuesday because it is far enough from the weekend and after a yoga session, so it helps "correct" any weekend badness.  Except, I was using it as an excuse for weekend badness.  So now I am going to weigh in on Monday mornings.  

Thursday, November 5, 2015

This Is It

For real this time.

I mean it.

After hemming and hawing, I finally went to the doctor.  It is all in my head, but I need some help to deal with those things.  I am frustrated and feel like I have let myself down.  But, I do feel like I can move forward at the very least. 

So, with that in mind, here we go with a new set of rules.
  1. Get on the elliptical (We finally got one!) three mornings a week.  
  2. Yoga three days a week 
  3. Weights/Full PT session two days a week
  4. Basic PT (Mackenzie Protocol, Squats, Planks) every day.
  5.  4 days before and 3 days after my scheduled cycle, simply write down what I am eating.
I am trying so hard to keep it simple right now.  I know how I need to eat to feel good.  I know that the hardest times to keep on track are right around my cycle.  I know that I am an emotional/stressful eater and hopefully new medication will help with that.

And yes, I said mornings for the elliptical workout.  I am hoping that getting up and getting my blood pumping will release some of the good stuff and keep me going.

Here's to getting started again. 

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Frustrated

Weight - 237 lbs

Was it the gluten filled meal I had on Sunday?  The birthday cake and all you can eat Sushi on Friday?  Maybe I splurged too much.

Maybe it is time to understand this is where my body is and I need to focus on being strong and healthy - working out enough to be healthy, eating generally right.

Maybe it is time to seek out other help.

Maybe I am in denial. Maybe it is just me and my habits.

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Fighting

Weight - 236.0

I definitely feel like I am fighting for every ounce.  I hate it.

I finally got to the endocrinologist. I am not happy. He basically tried to whisk me in and out figuring that because my levels were "normal", I would be in and out. He didn't even ask how I was feeling other than the cursory greeting, with which I replied "like crap".  (When my levels are where they currently are, I have historically felt like crap. I need my levels a little lower to feel my best, which we have discussed, but he seemed to have forgotten.) I had to actually say "hold on a minute" to get him to stop whisking me out of the room and actually listen to me. I had to BEG to try adding in a medicine, but not until after I had to suffer through a lecture about how my thyroid isn't the cause of all my problems and I really need to have more tests, which he wouldn't order.  All in all, it was a poor appointment.  I think if he had been willing to just talk to me, I might have felt better about the whole thing.  Needless to say, it is time for a new doctor.

(I did take the medicine this morning and I have noticed a huge uptick in energy and focus, we'll see if that is just because I know it should help or if it is actually helping.)

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Bummer

Weight - 237.6 lbs

What a bummer.  I ate well, exercised, etc. and I am down 0.2 lbs.  I am sure that PMS is contributing, but this sucks. 

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

And I am back

Today's weight - 237.8

Boo

But not unexpected.  I have strong suspicions that my thyroid is off.  Plus, let's be honest, I haven't been good at all about my eating.

All I can do it get back at it.  And get my thyroid checked.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Let's Talk Numbers

July 21, 2015
Weight 231.2

Yep, that's a gain. I do not like it, but I am also not surprised.  Not because I was eating horrible and not exercising (Minus one planned day of indulging, I was actually really low in terms of food intake.  Hmmm, maybe that played a role.), but because of numbers.

My body has what I call "set points", which are weights that my body likes to be at.  It is pretty easy to lose (or gain) my way to these points, but I get stuck there. I hit a plateau. 

230 lbs is the first of those set points. It is frustrating.  I work hard, but I gain for no reason.  I give up, eat like crap and lose a bit.  It takes time and patience to get through this. Once I hit 215 - 220, I will be in smooth sailing until about 200 lbs, but it is going to take some time to past the 230 number.

Patience.

Focus.

Determination.

(and maybe a little research to see if there is something I can do to help)