Week 5

April 28, 2015
Weight -237.8
Waist - 42.5
Hips -53.5
Thighs - 29.5
Upper Arms - 17
Bust - 45

In the last month, I have lost 8 lbs.  It is almost too much - I'd really like to stay at 5 lbs a month.  It does meant that I got my shoes.  :)

I am back to counting calories because well, I felt like I had to do something.  It keeps me accountable - if I eat that chocolate bar, I need to input it.  I am trying to not be obsessive.

The back is still in bad shape and with travel in May, I am taking it easy.  I have backed off to yoga only.  

The Fourth Week

April 21, 2015
Weight - 239.4

I honestly have no idea how that happened. I am sure it was a combination of water loss and working hard.

Of course, I threw my back out today.

So now I am going to be focused on making sure I heal up and eat right.

The Second and Third Weeks

Missed last week since we were on vacation

April 5, 2015
Weight - 243.6

Yep, that's a 1 pond gain over 2 weeks.  Given that I am post-vacation and pre-time-of-the-month, it isn't horrible.

I am definitely having trouble going back to the lower food intake and skipping those sweets.  I am trying to be kind to myself and have some patience, but today I am back at it.  I have to stay committed.

Overall, I am sleeping better, clothes fit better (minus some bloating, maybe from no caffeine), and I feel so much STRONGER.

A Little Epiphany

I missed last week's weigh in because we were on vacation.  I will do my regular check in next week.

I had a dream last night that I joined an adult women's basketball team.  I don't know why - I  never particularly enjoyed my two years playing basketball and I was never very good at it.  Dreams are weird.

I wanted to quit, desperately. I wanted to call it a mistake and bow out gracefully.  Then I remembered that we have insisted that the kids finish out the season for whatever team they have committed to and I was going to look like a hypocrite if I just quit. It wasn't a happy decision, it wasn't easy, but I had to finish out my obligation to the team.

Dreams are weird, but sometimes they can provide a little insight that you need. I need to view this journey as a team and I need to follow through on my obligation regardless of how hard or boring it gets.